Tuesday 8th November 2011

Well another day of morphine so diet gone to pot yet again. Lets hope tomorrow is a better day! Need to lose so much weight and I feel totally robbed at the moment!

Monday 7th November 2011

Well I promised today I would be back on track but unfortunately I have not been well with my Intercostal Neuralgia so been morphined up that I have been in bed all day. Steve was annoyed with me for going for a shower after taking my meds that he made me promise to stay in bed where he knew I was safe! I am not good at walking when dosed up and tend to walk into things so I know why he worries. So diet not possible today, but tomorrow is another day, so fingers crossed everything ok so I can continue by epic journey to fabulousness!

Sunday 6th November 2011

Normal blogging will resume tomorrow, i apologise for the lack of content over the past week or so, but we are back on track in the morning. The weigh ins will continue every week again starting tomorrow. I will be able to tell you if I have put anything on, stayed the same or lost since my last weigh in two weeks ago.

I really would like your continued support, but I really have been mentally not well and it hit a peak on Friday night. I will not let this happen again and will ask for help (professionally) if I continue to go downhill.

Please continue to comment or use the tick boxes just as a tool to let me I'm not alone.

Thank you everyone who has not given up on me. There will be times where my illness will take over, but I will fight back everything.

Sending loads of love and hugs to all my family and friends following my journey xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx

Saturday 5th November 2011

The Diet

Breakfast
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Thursday 3rd November 2011

The Diet

Breakfast - Banana
Snack - Big piece of Ross's birthday cake :((((((((((((((((
Lunch -

Well I have had to cancel my interview at Royal Derby because I am in too much pain to attend.  There is no way I could do an half hour audio typing test in this state and if I take painkillers then I wouldn't be able to get there at all!!!!!  What a complete waste of space I am!!!!  My mind and body are giving up on me spectacularly!!! I don't blame you if you stop following my blog, who wants to listen to all this drivel coming out of my mouth - or in this case finger tips.  All I want is a little 12 hour a week job, so I have contact with people other than over the internet, so I can act like I am normal for a bit and for people to actually learn to like me - honestly I can be so kind when I am not a self hating loser bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last night I got into trouble for something I could not control and basically was not aware of - on top of everything else this has broken the last piece of me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday 2nd November 2011

The diet

Breakfast - Banana

Snack - Pear

Lunch -

Snack -

Dinner -

Snack -

For those of you that predicted my failure, I feel like I have proved you right.  I am in such a dark place at the moment, I am barely about to function, never mind look after myself.  I apologise to anyone who is following me,  I don't mean to let you down - me I am not bothered about, but I do rely strongly to your support - how selfish am I?????????

Tuesday 1st November 2011 - Ross' birthday

The diet