Saturday 26th November 2011

Hi all, as you probably know from my whingy posts on fb that I have been struggling for the best part of a month with either my mental or physical health or both! I will really try to keep my blog up to date so you don't give up on me and my journey.  Thanks again for all your support, I would not been able to do it without you all.  Much love xxx

Wednesday 16th November 2011

The diet

Breakfast - Toast and yogurt
Snack - Banana
Lunch -

This morning I have had more than normal for breakfast but this is to try and combat the munchies from having morphine. I am still very hungry but I am sure I can now wait for a couple of hours til snack time!

I can't believe how difficult it is trying to eat regularly when I am in so much pain.  Really wish instead of just handing out pain killers that they would treat the problem instead of just masking it! Hey ho we all know what its like and I should be grateful that I get the help I do.

Everyone have a nice day and I'll be back later!  TTFN

I'm back and on morphine so may or may not make sense! Stevie made me a lovely tea of chicken with peppers and onions and some pasta. Mmm he is lovely to me, I am so lucky to have such a good man!

Anyway think this is all I am capable of today so bye for now and see you tomorrow xxx

Monday 14th November 2011

The diet

Breakfast - Pear
Snack -
Lunch -

Well its the start of a new week and I am certain that things are going to go well this week!!!  I want to try and leave all the negativity around me all behind.  Need to get a few things in my head clear, it is obvious that I am carrying around alot of excess baggage and I need to get rid of this because I know it is holding me back.   I am not just talking about my past, cause I do think that I have been able to bury alot of that in the past few months and no longer have nightmares about certain things and people.  I need to deal with the here and now, find out what is not good for me and ditch it.

I know I talk about it alot, but I can't deal with lies, yes I understand sometimes we have to bend the truth to save people feelings, but I am talking about big whopping lies, the ones that hurt people badly and then the worst of it being told lies by someone who can't remember their lies, never mind the truth!!! I must admit life is a mystery to me.

Saturday 12th November 2011

Friday 11th November 2011

The diet

Breakfast - Pear
Snack - Pear
Lunch - Four crackerbreads with chilli cheese spread
Snack - jelly sugar free
Dinner - chicken breast fillet with onions, peppers and fajita spice

Now, had a problem with following the diet today as I had my fruit but when I went to make my salad I found my last pack of sliced beef had been eaten grrr! Could have had tuna or salmon but to be honest don't think I could have stomached fish! So i had some cracker breads with some chilli cheese spread.  Steve then made me for tea chicken breast with onions and peppers, really nice with fajita spice!

So another successful day even though some git pinched my beef!

Thursday 10th November 2011- Lottie's birthday yay!

Right I have managed today to not have any extra morphine so hopefully the diet today will go a bit more smoothly!  Just had a pear and looking forward to my salad at tea time

Well I am pleased to report that even though the diet has not been good I have still managed to lose 2 and a half pounds! This is great news for me because really thought I would have piled weight on because of the lack of routine and the fact that I do have the munchies with the morphine. I am not going to get complacent about it though, I really need to knuckle down and get my ass into gear if I am going to get to my goal of losing 3 stone by the end of December! Thanks to those of you that haven't given up on me <3<3<3<3<3<3<3

Wednesday 9th November 2011

The Diet

Breakfast - Banana
Snack -
Lunch - Brunch
Dinner - Moussaka

The day started well, I had my banana then the pains started but I wanted to try and go without the morphine today. I managed to sleep a bit more then went meet Steve for lunch. We went to Asda cafe and I had a breakfast brunch, not very diety I hear you say but to be honest the done is limited and I wouldn't have it again!  After I got home the pain got worse, so I tried the hot water bottle for a bit but in the end I had to have the morphine! So the Diet didn't go well and I had moussaka and salad, it was tasty but fattening!

I am hopefully going to try and get weighed tomorrow, I am scared that I will have put all my weight back on eek,  although I shouldn't have it is my biggest fear.  I really hate being ill cause it makes everything so hard! Will fill you in  tomorrow on how the weigh in goes!