Hi there, well its been a week and a day since my operation. I had a gastic bypass done at Royal Derby Hospital. Although I had to jump through some pretty tough hoops, I am really grateful to the surgeon of the Bariatric Services for making my operation safe and a success. There were also some pretty awesome nurses looking after me too, I cannot possibly ever be able to pay them back for their kindness and humility!
Firstly I would like to give you some of my reasons for having such drastic and invasive surgery. I decided to look into this myself and didn't ask any member of my family for their help or opinions - selfish you may think, but I don't agree, I wanted this to be my own decision, I didn't want anyone to try and change my mind - I was doing this for ME!
I have always struggled with confidence and low self esteem, right back from my school days, which certainly weren't my happiest. I am not going to go into the reason of my mental health problems as this is about weight loss and not that. Over the years things have happened for good and bad and my health has suffered because of this.
My weight problems began mainly over the last ten years, I started binge eating and then my night time eating increased to ridiculous level, yet I didn't see the problem, I ignored it and it escalated. I was essentially eating myself to death and the only person who could change this was me! Over the years I have tried diets but struggled with all of them.
I applied for this surgery years ago but never got a reply, so the last application was my third and yay I got a response and was told I would get an appointment within a set amount of weeks, well this was back in November 2010 and an appointment was given to me for February 2011.
That first appointment was a mixture of relief, embarrassment and disappointment, I'll explain why.
I first went to see a dietician who asked me alot of questions
and revealed that this time I was successful for an appointment because I was now 'fat ' enough, how embarrassed did I feel. Its hard to accept that I must be that fat, I always wished I wasn't as fat as I knew I was! I was then told by the dietician that she didn't consider me mentally stable enough to go through this kind of surgery, this is where the disappointment stepped in. Who was this lady who had known me for ten minutes to make such a bold statement about me! I was gutted, yes I have my problems but what on earth have they to do with having surgery! She didn't seem to want to take my physical problems into consideration, because I believe that this nurse just say me as a nutter and a problem! Luckily for me I was also booked into seeing the wonderful Prof Larvin who after meeting me for five minutes said I would be a perfect candidate for surgery. Ha boo sucks to the narrow minded dietician! So to my relief I was booked in again for three months later, which is protocol for everyone, a cooling down period I suppose.! The journey from then til now was a fraught one, but despite all that was thrown at me I succeeded and lost two and a half stone before surgery. So, I've digressed so back to the reasons for surgery - For a healthy lifestyle To feel better in myself To be able to shop anywhere other than Evans! To be more active To help my aches and pains There are many more reasons but these are the most important to me Updates to follow xxx
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