Thursday 22nd September 2011 - Job interview today

First things first, the diet diary -

Breakfast - Banana
Snack - Yogurt
Lunch - 2 crispbreads with philly and 2 plums
Snack - Banana
Dinner - Ham salad, lett, toms, cuc, spring onions, 2 crispbreads
Snack -

Well, I has a really good nights sleep, woke up a few times, but seemed to get back off quickly.  Now some of my nightmares are working their way back into my dreams.  I was only commenting over the past couple of weeks I have not had these dreams, maybe all the changes going off my head is getting mashed at night again, maybe time to increase my night meds like I have the past few nights.

I have an interview this afternoon, just an informal interview and anyone who is in which a chance has to do two weeks trial, must admit this seems a bit extreme for a 12 hour a week job, but hey ho I am prepared to jump through hoops if that gets me the job!!!

Need to talk about my mood at bit, see if sharing makes it a little less daunting.  I am up and down like a yoyo, one minute I am pleased about what I am doing, then then next so down I can't see the point.  Having so much support is what is keeping me going, my Mum and Steve are my backbone at the moment, I would crumble without them - they praise me for the littlest thing, and sometimes this is what I need, just that little pat on the head to confirm that I am not a complete loser. I know people have opinions about me, think that I do nothing at all and that I am lazy - this is not true, but why should I justify myself to these people - if they want to spend their time critiquing me then let them, I am obviously more interesting than I thought!!!

Anyway, that is todays rant over hopefully!!!  See you later xxx

Well I went to the interview, and the bloke was really nice.  Would really like the job, but there are a lot of people being interviewed by the sounds of it. I know it would do my confidence loads of good, but I won't be down hearted if I don't get it.  Got to wait til next week, so need to put it out of my head til I hear something, or I will drive myself insane (even more if that is possible lol).  Well had to nip to Asda tonight when Steve got home to stock up on the diet food.  First time I have really been out since starting the diet and I really felt light headed and hungry, this is the first time this has happened.  Steve and I spoke about it and agreed that I do not have a high calorie intake on this diet and perhaps it is not that suitable if I plan to move around alot!!!  So going to keep to it til next Tuesday when I get weighed again, and then possible add a few more calories if I know I am going to go out - I know I don't do this often, so I can plan ahead for this.  My energy levels are still quite high and am ok doing things around the house, so know I am safe enough to keep on with this for a bit longer.  I go back to the hospital on the 4th October, so will see what they advise then.  I don't think this is a long term diet, but I needed something to kick me into gear and this certainly has - think the Dietitian will be pleased when I go.

Anyway, its getting late and there must be something that I can watch on telly til Steve and James get back from the gym.  Another successful day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!